We are still smiling from our big news on Tuesday! Praise God!!! Unfortunately, cold and flu season is upon us - my co-worker called me yesterday morning to warn me that I might not wanna come in b/c lots of people at work were getting sick. And this morning Ryan woke up with a bad cold and did not go to work either (pilots cannot fly when they are sick, so they are encouraged to keep their sicknesses at home so as not to incapacitate the air station). Please pray that Ryan gets better before my chemo on Monday(otherwise he probably can't come with me) and that I do not catch anything from him.
We helped at the Fall Festival at our church tonight - I love watching kids have fun!! We are really blessed to have such a great church family.
I'm really looking forward to getting better and finishing chemo. I have been thinking a lot about things I wanna do - some in the near future and some down the road. Here's a list of some:
- learn my current job better and do it well (i was only there a month before I was diagnosed)
- coach a high school cross-country team
- get my master's degree
- teach Sunday school again
- have kids
- compete in triathlons
- open a cancer care center with Christian staff and principles (this one is probably many years down the road)
But for now, I will rest in God's goodness and provision.
"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:2
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
PET/CT Scan Results
Christie's PET/CT scan results came in today - with GREAT results. The scan showed NO cancer at all!
This is great news. After only 4 chemo treatments, the cancer is no longer detectable. This doesn't necessarily mean it's gone. When the cancer is small enough, the PET/CT can no longer detect it, though some may yet reside. This is OK, though - Christie will just keep getting Chemo for a while to make sure that all of it is destroyed. Studies show that continuing the chemo for 4-6 months yield a mere 5-10% relapse rate. So, Christie's odds have now gone from ~70% to 90-95%!
So basically: If any cancer cells are left over, they have the potential to cause a complete relapse. So - while the PET/CT results are HUGE blessing and GREAT news, the chemo will continue. Please continue to pray for Christie's strength to hold up, and for her to continue to tolerate the cumulative affects of the treatment. (She has been holding up extremely well throughout the treatments thus far, though - her worst symptoms were actually during the first treatment, though the less-severe symptoms she now experiences last about a day or two longer than they did at first).
Thank you for your continuing prayers. Please pray for the cancer to be gone and for the residual dead scar tissue to shrink. If it shrinks, she might not need radiation. If it's still there, she will need it, since some cancer cells can hide from the chemo in it.
Cancer is a strange beast - it seems that no one ever really knows what will happen. In fact, even the experts are afraid of trying to predict. We will play the odds with selecting proper treatments, but we know that in the big-picture (i.e. God's picture) odds don't matter. They don't matter at all when you know what will happen and you can orchestrate it all for good anyway. I think God would make a poor statistician - he had no need for statistics =)
This is great news. After only 4 chemo treatments, the cancer is no longer detectable. This doesn't necessarily mean it's gone. When the cancer is small enough, the PET/CT can no longer detect it, though some may yet reside. This is OK, though - Christie will just keep getting Chemo for a while to make sure that all of it is destroyed. Studies show that continuing the chemo for 4-6 months yield a mere 5-10% relapse rate. So, Christie's odds have now gone from ~70% to 90-95%!
So basically: If any cancer cells are left over, they have the potential to cause a complete relapse. So - while the PET/CT results are HUGE blessing and GREAT news, the chemo will continue. Please continue to pray for Christie's strength to hold up, and for her to continue to tolerate the cumulative affects of the treatment. (She has been holding up extremely well throughout the treatments thus far, though - her worst symptoms were actually during the first treatment, though the less-severe symptoms she now experiences last about a day or two longer than they did at first).
Thank you for your continuing prayers. Please pray for the cancer to be gone and for the residual dead scar tissue to shrink. If it shrinks, she might not need radiation. If it's still there, she will need it, since some cancer cells can hide from the chemo in it.
Cancer is a strange beast - it seems that no one ever really knows what will happen. In fact, even the experts are afraid of trying to predict. We will play the odds with selecting proper treatments, but we know that in the big-picture (i.e. God's picture) odds don't matter. They don't matter at all when you know what will happen and you can orchestrate it all for good anyway. I think God would make a poor statistician - he had no need for statistics =)
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Still Waiting...
We realized that our last post may have been misleading...we did not actually get the results on Tuesday, I only had the PETSCAN and then the results take several days and they send them to your doctor. Hopefully we will get them this week, maybe at our appointment on Tuesday.
Tomorrow (Monday) we have our transfer appointment at Stanford. Hopefully that goes well - transferring doctors is kinda scary, even if it is Stanford.
We attended a retreat this past weekend with Cleansing Stream ministries - we had been going through the Bible study seminar for the past several weeks with our church. It was amazing!!! If you ever have an opportunity to go through a Cleansing Stream seminar and retreat - I highly recommend it!!!
I have had this chorus from one of the praise songs we sang playing in my head:
"I call your name,
and Lord, you reply,
You bring your kingdom
and stand by my side."
How amazing is that?! We have all the power of God's kingdom available to us through Christ as His children. I just have this picture of facing an enemy alone and calling on God and suddenly being surrounded on all sides by an army in my defense.
Thank you for all your prayers and support. May God bless you tremendously this week!
Tomorrow (Monday) we have our transfer appointment at Stanford. Hopefully that goes well - transferring doctors is kinda scary, even if it is Stanford.
We attended a retreat this past weekend with Cleansing Stream ministries - we had been going through the Bible study seminar for the past several weeks with our church. It was amazing!!! If you ever have an opportunity to go through a Cleansing Stream seminar and retreat - I highly recommend it!!!
I have had this chorus from one of the praise songs we sang playing in my head:
"I call your name,
and Lord, you reply,
You bring your kingdom
and stand by my side."
How amazing is that?! We have all the power of God's kingdom available to us through Christ as His children. I just have this picture of facing an enemy alone and calling on God and suddenly being surrounded on all sides by an army in my defense.
Thank you for all your prayers and support. May God bless you tremendously this week!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
PET Scan Tomorrow - big update to come!
Last weekend was a blur - getting "bagged" (i.e. exceeding mission time in the helicopter and having to get relieved by a fresh crew) while on duty and hoisting someone who fell off a 350' cliff, not sleeping for 48 hrs, watching the San Francisco Red Bull Soap Box Race in Dolores Park (in S.F.) and getting our car towed while on the way to chemo and having to put it off until yesterday, it's been crazy. And we don't even have kids ... I'm sure that would add a new level of chaos to things
Christie received Chemo yesterday, so we're a day off her normal schedule. No big deal. Tomorrow she'll have her PET scan, which is a pretty accurate body scan for active cancer cells. We're hoping and praying that it shows NO tumor at all. That would be outstanding. The docs would surely put her through the rest of her chemo, but that would be great. I've been thinking about what would cause the doctors to declare her cured on the spot tomorrow - and the only thing I can think of is if there were no sign of anything at all abnormal in her chest. That would be miraculous, since even after the cancer is gone, there will probably be all sorts of scar tissue and residual fibers from where the tumor was growing.
We're praying for Christie to be completely cured like that. But even if she is not, God is still good, we realize he still loves us as much as if he did cure her miraculously, and we will wait on Him, the God who, for those who love Him, turn bad things into good things (somehow ... amazingly ... curiously). Please pray for excellent results on tomorrow's test.
Christie received Chemo yesterday, so we're a day off her normal schedule. No big deal. Tomorrow she'll have her PET scan, which is a pretty accurate body scan for active cancer cells. We're hoping and praying that it shows NO tumor at all. That would be outstanding. The docs would surely put her through the rest of her chemo, but that would be great. I've been thinking about what would cause the doctors to declare her cured on the spot tomorrow - and the only thing I can think of is if there were no sign of anything at all abnormal in her chest. That would be miraculous, since even after the cancer is gone, there will probably be all sorts of scar tissue and residual fibers from where the tumor was growing.
We're praying for Christie to be completely cured like that. But even if she is not, God is still good, we realize he still loves us as much as if he did cure her miraculously, and we will wait on Him, the God who, for those who love Him, turn bad things into good things (somehow ... amazingly ... curiously). Please pray for excellent results on tomorrow's test.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Updates
Wow - I haven't written in over a week. It seems like so much has happened. I flew without incident to San Diego last Monday night and got underway with the patrol boats all day Tuesday, then flew back home Tuesday night. I worked Wednesday, went to Travis for labs and then biochem class on Thursday, and ...(drumroll please)...flew to South Padre Island to visit my family on Friday. We had an awesome weekend together - it was so good to see them and to enjoy a few hours relaxing on a tropical beach =) It was awesome to swim comfortably in the ocean without a wetsuit again.
Then I flew home last night. Ryan was on duty unexpectedly and I ended up staying at a friend's house and picking him up in the morning to go to Travis for chemo. We stopped on the way to have breakfast in San Fran with a couple of my friends from the Academy that were in town for the Nike Women's marathon - they were actually running it with Team-in-Training, which raises money for leukemia and lymphoma research, which is awesome! Anyway, we had a great time at breakfast and then came back and our car was gone!!!!! San Francisco is runing a major scam - they make the signs that tell you when you can park somewhere really confusing, prowl the streets in the morning looking for victims to tow for no real logical reason other than a stupid sign, than charge you $285 plus a $70 ticket to get your car back!!! And we fell prey to the whole thing - I called the nurses while we were waiting in line with the other 20 people they had managed to victimized before 10:30 in the morning and told them what happened, and they said that by the time we got there it would be too late to do my chemo today (what?), and we could come first thing tomorrow morning. For some reason, I broke out in tears right there in the auto return place and could not stop crying all the way home. It's crazy - I guess I was mentally and emotionally prepared to have it today, and the thought of waiting and having to start all over tomorrow was suddenly overwhelming. So, we got home and it was almost noon so at this point neither of us were planning to go to work so I suggested we rent a movie and visit one of our friends who just had surgery and can't really get off the couch too much. So we did and it was a nice afternoon. We ended up having dinner at another friend's house later on in the evening so today, while completely unplanned, turned out to be a great day of just spending time with awesome people. It's not very often you get to do that all day on a Monday, so I guess I don't really have any complaints - it was a gift from above.
Tomorrow is chemo - please pray for my recovery again. I'm supposed to have a biochem midterm on Thursday, which will now probably be my worst day, so I am trying to reschedule. I think this might count as "exceptional circumstances" ???
Thank you for all your prayers and support. I am truly blessed by the people in my life.
Then I flew home last night. Ryan was on duty unexpectedly and I ended up staying at a friend's house and picking him up in the morning to go to Travis for chemo. We stopped on the way to have breakfast in San Fran with a couple of my friends from the Academy that were in town for the Nike Women's marathon - they were actually running it with Team-in-Training, which raises money for leukemia and lymphoma research, which is awesome! Anyway, we had a great time at breakfast and then came back and our car was gone!!!!! San Francisco is runing a major scam - they make the signs that tell you when you can park somewhere really confusing, prowl the streets in the morning looking for victims to tow for no real logical reason other than a stupid sign, than charge you $285 plus a $70 ticket to get your car back!!! And we fell prey to the whole thing - I called the nurses while we were waiting in line with the other 20 people they had managed to victimized before 10:30 in the morning and told them what happened, and they said that by the time we got there it would be too late to do my chemo today (what?), and we could come first thing tomorrow morning. For some reason, I broke out in tears right there in the auto return place and could not stop crying all the way home. It's crazy - I guess I was mentally and emotionally prepared to have it today, and the thought of waiting and having to start all over tomorrow was suddenly overwhelming. So, we got home and it was almost noon so at this point neither of us were planning to go to work so I suggested we rent a movie and visit one of our friends who just had surgery and can't really get off the couch too much. So we did and it was a nice afternoon. We ended up having dinner at another friend's house later on in the evening so today, while completely unplanned, turned out to be a great day of just spending time with awesome people. It's not very often you get to do that all day on a Monday, so I guess I don't really have any complaints - it was a gift from above.
Tomorrow is chemo - please pray for my recovery again. I'm supposed to have a biochem midterm on Thursday, which will now probably be my worst day, so I am trying to reschedule. I think this might count as "exceptional circumstances" ???
Thank you for all your prayers and support. I am truly blessed by the people in my life.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Whom then shall I fear?
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
Your perfect love is casting out fear.
And even though I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life,
I won't turn back I know you are near.
And I will fear no evil, for my God is with me,
And if my God is with me,
Whom then shall I fear, whom then shall I fear?
Oh no, you never let go, through the calm and through the storm
oh no, you never let go, every high and every low,
oh no, you never let go, Lord, you never let go of me."
Two months ago, I returned from my final patrol on MORGENTHAU. On the first Sunday I was in church after that, this was one of the worship songs and it was a song of praise for me, thanking God for bringing me through "the calms and the storms" of the past year on the cutter, and the past couple years of Ryan and I being apart all the time. I was thinking back over the past couple years about how God had truly never let go, and had brought us to this time when we could live in the same place for months/even years at a time(imagine that?) and I felt like we had completed a journey in our lives and arrived at a more restful, settled time - as if God was giving us a breath of fresh air.
Now, two months later, this has become my song of faith and my prayer, as we sang it in church again this morning. I am so thankful that Ryan and I can live together consistently now, and there is such peace and joy in knowing that we will not be saying good-bye next week or next month or the month after, etc. And we appreciate this more than we ever would have before. I am also experiencing a certain type of rest in the journey of this sickness - every other week I am forced to slow down and a quiet falls over my life for a few days and I believe that God will use those times to draw me to Him - He is showing me that I need to give up all my anxieties during that time and just let Him do that. And then, in the big picture of life, mine has been taken out of my hands and immediate control (or semblance of control) right now, and God is showing me what it means to rest in Him. And this extends to every area of my life -work, future plans, relationships, etc. - when I become anxious or overwhelmed or do not know what to do, I find myself more and more asking Him to show me and praying simply, "I will rest in you."
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
Your perfect love is casting out fear.
And even though I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life,
I won't turn back I know you are near.
And I will fear no evil, for my God is with me,
And if my God is with me,
Whom then shall I fear, whom then shall I fear?
Oh no, you never let go, through the calm and through the storm
oh no, you never let go, every high and every low,
oh no, you never let go, Lord, you never let go of me."
Two months ago, I returned from my final patrol on MORGENTHAU. On the first Sunday I was in church after that, this was one of the worship songs and it was a song of praise for me, thanking God for bringing me through "the calms and the storms" of the past year on the cutter, and the past couple years of Ryan and I being apart all the time. I was thinking back over the past couple years about how God had truly never let go, and had brought us to this time when we could live in the same place for months/even years at a time(imagine that?) and I felt like we had completed a journey in our lives and arrived at a more restful, settled time - as if God was giving us a breath of fresh air.
Now, two months later, this has become my song of faith and my prayer, as we sang it in church again this morning. I am so thankful that Ryan and I can live together consistently now, and there is such peace and joy in knowing that we will not be saying good-bye next week or next month or the month after, etc. And we appreciate this more than we ever would have before. I am also experiencing a certain type of rest in the journey of this sickness - every other week I am forced to slow down and a quiet falls over my life for a few days and I believe that God will use those times to draw me to Him - He is showing me that I need to give up all my anxieties during that time and just let Him do that. And then, in the big picture of life, mine has been taken out of my hands and immediate control (or semblance of control) right now, and God is showing me what it means to rest in Him. And this extends to every area of my life -work, future plans, relationships, etc. - when I become anxious or overwhelmed or do not know what to do, I find myself more and more asking Him to show me and praying simply, "I will rest in you."
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
Friday, October 10, 2008
TGIF!!!
It's Friday again!!! And I am feeling better - Tuesday, Wednesday, and the first half of Thursday were not very fun - but Fridays of chemo weeks are always nice b/c I start to feel better - it's like coming back to the real world after hibernating for several days (sort of).
We went to see the movie Fireproof with some friends tonight - it's awesome - I highly recommend it. It's pretty amazing that they are showing it in the big theaters. Although, we could only find it in one theater near us in Cali, and we had to drive all the way across the Bay Bridge to Emeryville to see it. Not one theater in San Francisco or the peninsula was showing it!!!
Next week I am expecting to feel good again =), so I have made plans to travel to San Diego on Monday night and Tuesday for work and then...more excitingly (I know...that's not really a word ...but I have chemo brain =) ...to Texas next weekend to see my parents, grandma and sister at my parent's new beach condo on South Padre Island!!!! I'm really excited!!!!!
We went to see the movie Fireproof with some friends tonight - it's awesome - I highly recommend it. It's pretty amazing that they are showing it in the big theaters. Although, we could only find it in one theater near us in Cali, and we had to drive all the way across the Bay Bridge to Emeryville to see it. Not one theater in San Francisco or the peninsula was showing it!!!
Next week I am expecting to feel good again =), so I have made plans to travel to San Diego on Monday night and Tuesday for work and then...more excitingly (I know...that's not really a word ...but I have chemo brain =) ...to Texas next weekend to see my parents, grandma and sister at my parent's new beach condo on South Padre Island!!!! I'm really excited!!!!!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Chemo # 3
The nurse peeled off the numbing pad that Christie placed on her Power Port this morning. As she reached for the long, curved hollow needle and prepared to pierce the port to deliver Chemo # 3, Christie said, "Wait ... could you use some of that numbing spray, too?"
The head nurse, sitting and facing away from Christie, typing away at the 1980's era MS DOS computer that typifies Travis AFB's computer network, gave her a sly look over her right shoulder. "Okay," she said too cheerfully, " ... but you know ... they don't give the spray at Stanford ... "
:::Nervous laughter from Christie:::
Hmmm... I guess the rumor's spread among the nurses that Christie might be transferred!
We will be sad to leave the awesome doctors and nurses that have been taking care of us - but Stanford is so much closer and better for our schedule, not to mention one of the leading facilities in the country for Hodgkin's disease.
Christie's week has been great. She's been exercising a bit at work most days. Saturday we went to the "Rock of Ages" Festival in Napa Valley - it was a concert-type festival that featured the Newsboys and Seventh Day Slumber - both great bands. The way Christie was jumping around, you wouldn't even know she had anything wrong!
We are doing well - both feeling very at peace. I am so thankful that work is giving me the opportunity to take care of Christie on her bad days. I am thankful to my bosses, because they are excellent, and co-workers because they are taking up some of my slack. (No, they don't have this blog address, so they don't know I'm writing this, so I'm NOT sucking up to either!) I am thankful to Jesus for caring for us so well. Three weeks of Chemo down!
Isaiah 40:28,29
"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."
The head nurse, sitting and facing away from Christie, typing away at the 1980's era MS DOS computer that typifies Travis AFB's computer network, gave her a sly look over her right shoulder. "Okay," she said too cheerfully, " ... but you know ... they don't give the spray at Stanford ... "
:::Nervous laughter from Christie:::
Hmmm... I guess the rumor's spread among the nurses that Christie might be transferred!
We will be sad to leave the awesome doctors and nurses that have been taking care of us - but Stanford is so much closer and better for our schedule, not to mention one of the leading facilities in the country for Hodgkin's disease.
Christie's week has been great. She's been exercising a bit at work most days. Saturday we went to the "Rock of Ages" Festival in Napa Valley - it was a concert-type festival that featured the Newsboys and Seventh Day Slumber - both great bands. The way Christie was jumping around, you wouldn't even know she had anything wrong!
We are doing well - both feeling very at peace. I am so thankful that work is giving me the opportunity to take care of Christie on her bad days. I am thankful to my bosses, because they are excellent, and co-workers because they are taking up some of my slack. (No, they don't have this blog address, so they don't know I'm writing this, so I'm NOT sucking up to either!) I am thankful to Jesus for caring for us so well. Three weeks of Chemo down!
Isaiah 40:28,29
"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
"Enough for that Day"
Then the Lord said to Moses, "I will rain down bread from heaven for you. The people are to go out each day and gather enough for that day. In this way I will test them and see whether they follow my instructions." Exodus 16:4
I have felt great the past three days! I mean so close to normal I almost forgot I have cancer a few times! And actually even better than before I had chemo b/c the cough and nausea caused by the tumor are gone. Monday - I got up and went to work, came home still having lots of energy, walked to the store with Ry (where we bought lots of fruit to make yummy fresh juice!), and had friends over for dinner and played board games til 10. Got up early Tuesday morning, drove to Travis with Ryan, got all our questions answered by our awesome doctor, drove home, made dinner and juice together, then went to our evening Bible study, came home and ended up talking til about 11. Got up early again today, drove to Travis(about 1 1/2 hours each way) by myself for a physical therapy consult and a heart function test, drove home, still felt good, took Ryan dinner at the air station b/c he is on duty. So, the point of all this rambling is - for three days straight I have had a normal energy level and my usual pace of life(if you replace the driving and doctor's appointments with something like work). It will be awesome if every non-chemo week can be like this!!
But, I have to realize that it may not. They say that chemo wears on the body over time, increasing fatigue. Also, it can affect you differently each time. And there is always the risk of infection and complications. I feel like God is teaching me to depend on Him for each day. I can't count on the fact that 2 weeks from now I will feel like this, but I can praise Him that today was a good day, and ask for strength for whatever comes tomorrow. The reality is we are never guaranteed what will happen tomorrow, but in the same way that being diagnosed with cancer made me face my own earthly mortality (it was always there - I, being 23, just didn't usually think about it or acknowledge it), living with it makes me realize my ultimate dependence on God for each day. God gave the Israelites the gift of manna in the desert, enough for each day - any extra they collected rotted by the next morning. But God had already provided new manna for that day. He wants us to trust him day-by-day - we don't need to have a "back-up plan" in case God falls through - He never will. A book I read by Max Lucado once talked about how God's plan for the manna was an incredible gift - we don't have to worry about collecting manna for tomorrow - He has taken that burden out of our hands!!! He promises to provide for His children today, tomorrow, and forever.
Of course, this is all a lot easier to write than it is to do. Our world surrounds us with messages that tell us to take care of number one, and trust ourselves for answers. There is a strange quietness and peace in not knowing what tomorrow or the next day will be like - God has truly taken it out of my control. All I can do is lift my hands to him and say, "It's yours, Lord, and I will rest in you."
I have felt great the past three days! I mean so close to normal I almost forgot I have cancer a few times! And actually even better than before I had chemo b/c the cough and nausea caused by the tumor are gone. Monday - I got up and went to work, came home still having lots of energy, walked to the store with Ry (where we bought lots of fruit to make yummy fresh juice!), and had friends over for dinner and played board games til 10. Got up early Tuesday morning, drove to Travis with Ryan, got all our questions answered by our awesome doctor, drove home, made dinner and juice together, then went to our evening Bible study, came home and ended up talking til about 11. Got up early again today, drove to Travis(about 1 1/2 hours each way) by myself for a physical therapy consult and a heart function test, drove home, still felt good, took Ryan dinner at the air station b/c he is on duty. So, the point of all this rambling is - for three days straight I have had a normal energy level and my usual pace of life(if you replace the driving and doctor's appointments with something like work). It will be awesome if every non-chemo week can be like this!!
But, I have to realize that it may not. They say that chemo wears on the body over time, increasing fatigue. Also, it can affect you differently each time. And there is always the risk of infection and complications. I feel like God is teaching me to depend on Him for each day. I can't count on the fact that 2 weeks from now I will feel like this, but I can praise Him that today was a good day, and ask for strength for whatever comes tomorrow. The reality is we are never guaranteed what will happen tomorrow, but in the same way that being diagnosed with cancer made me face my own earthly mortality (it was always there - I, being 23, just didn't usually think about it or acknowledge it), living with it makes me realize my ultimate dependence on God for each day. God gave the Israelites the gift of manna in the desert, enough for each day - any extra they collected rotted by the next morning. But God had already provided new manna for that day. He wants us to trust him day-by-day - we don't need to have a "back-up plan" in case God falls through - He never will. A book I read by Max Lucado once talked about how God's plan for the manna was an incredible gift - we don't have to worry about collecting manna for tomorrow - He has taken that burden out of our hands!!! He promises to provide for His children today, tomorrow, and forever.
Of course, this is all a lot easier to write than it is to do. Our world surrounds us with messages that tell us to take care of number one, and trust ourselves for answers. There is a strange quietness and peace in not knowing what tomorrow or the next day will be like - God has truly taken it out of my control. All I can do is lift my hands to him and say, "It's yours, Lord, and I will rest in you."
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