I now have a power port!!!!

So, I'm not a big fan of doctors, needles, cutting, surgery, blood,etc. In fact, I would say I am phobic. Maybe I am supposed to overcome my fears over the next six months, lol. Needless to say, I was really scared/nervous about my surgery today because I had to be awake, under conscious sedation, which I have never experienced before. The nurse made it worse by explaining to me the whole process ahead - that they were going to stick a needle in a vein in my neck and thread it all the way to my vena cava, then make an incision in my chest to place the port and tunnel through my skin to meet up with the needle. I was really afraid I was going to have a panic atttack on the table. ..

The cool thing is...conscious sedation actually works. About five minutes after they gave me the drugs, I felt dizzy and sleepy and kind of like I was floating and I thought, "I really could care less if they stick a needle in my neck right now". And even though I was awake and I remember being there and hearing the doctors talking, I have no idea what actually happened when, and I didn't feel anything except the local anesthetic, but I didn't even care. So, I was incredibly apprehensive going to the hospital today, but the procedure turned out much better than I feared.

And then I came home and slept off the drugs and Ryan grilled a delicious dinner of steak, fish, and vegetable kabobs (I had not been allowed to eat all day). I am thankful to have such an amazing husband, and he is also the best steak-griller that I have ever met!!!

So that's it for the hospital for me until Monday when I have my second dose of chemo. Tomorrow I have an appointment to get a wig made - one day soon you may not recognize me =)